salamu alaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, This is a true story about a man named Rashed. He tells his story as followsā¦[message be by Sophia Wise-Wool]
I was not more than thirty years old when my wife gave birth to my first child. I still remember that night.
I had stayed out all night long with my friends, as was my habit. It was a night filled with useless talk, and worse, with backbiting, gossiping, and making fun of people. I was mostly the one who made people laugh; I would mock others and my friends would laugh and laugh. I remember on that night that Iād made them laugh a lot. I had an amazing ability to imitate others ā I could change the sound of my voice until I sounded exactly like the person I was mocking. No one was safe from my biting mockery, even my friends; some people started avoiding me just to be safe from my tongue. I remember on that night, I had made fun of a blind man who Iād seen begging in the market. What was worse, I had put my foot out in front him ā he tripped and fell, and started turning his head around, not knowing what to say.
I went back to my house, late as usual, and I found my wife waiting for me. She was in a terrible state, and said in a quivering voice, āRashedā¦ where were you?ā
āWhere would I be, on Mars?ā I said sarcastically, āWith my friends of course.ā
She was visibly exhausted, and holding back tears, she said, āRashed, Iām so tired. It seems the baby is going to come soon.ā A silent tear fell on her cheek.
I felt that I had neglected my wife. I should have taken care of her and not stayed out so much all those nightsā¦ especially since she was in her ninth month. I quickly took her to the hospital; she went into the delivery room, and suffered through long hours of pain.
I waited patiently for her to give birthā¦ but her delivery was difficult, and I waited a long time until I got tired. So I went home and left my phone number with the hospital so they could call with the good news. An hour later, they called me to congratulate me on the birth of Salem. I went to the hospital immediately. As soon as they saw me, they asked me to go see the doctor who had overlooked my wifeās delivery.
āWhat doctor?ā I cried out, āI just want to see my son Salem!ā
āFirst go see the doctor,ā they said.
I went to the doctor, and she started talking to me about trials, and about being satisfied with Allahās decree. Then she said, āYour son has a serious deformity in his eyes, and it seems that he has no vision.ā I lowered my head while I fought back tearsā¦ I remembered that blind man begging in the market who Iād tripped and made others laugh at.
Subhan Allah, you get what you give! I stayed brooding quietly for a whileā¦ I didnāt know what to say. Then I remembered my wife and son. I thanked the doctor for her kindness, and went to go see my wife. My wife wasnāt sad. She believed in the decree of Allahā¦ she was contentā¦ How often had she advised me to stop mocking people! āDonāt backbite people,ā she always used to repeatā¦ We left the hospital, and Salem came with us.
In reality, I didnāt pay much attention to him. I pretended that he wasnāt in the house with us. When he started crying loudly, Iād escape to the living room to sleep there. My wife took good care of him, and loved him a lot. As for myself, I didnāt hate him, but I couldnāt love him either.
Salem grew. He started to crawl, and had a strange way of crawling. When he was almost one year old, he started trying to walk, and we discovered that he was crippled. I felt like he was an even greater burden on me. After him, my wife gave birth to Umar and Khaled. The years passed, and Salem grew, and his brothers grew. I never liked to sit at home, I was always out with my friendsā¦ in reality, I was like a plaything at their disposal [entertaining them whenever they wanted].
My wife never gave up on my reform. She always made duāaa for my guidance. She never got angry with my reckless behavior, but she would get really sad if she saw me neglecting Salem and paying attention to the rest of his brothers. Salem grew, and my worries grew with him. I didnāt mind when my wife asked to enroll him in a special school for the handicapped.
I didnāt really feel the passing of the years. My days were all the same. Work and sleep and food and staying out with friends. One Friday, I woke up at 11 am. This was early for me. I was invited to a gathering, so I got dressed and perfumed, and was about to go out. I passed by our living room, and was startled by the sight of Salem ā he was sobbing! This was the first time I had noticed Salem crying since he was a baby. Ten years had passed, and I hadnāt paid attention to him. I tried to ignore him now, but I couldnāt take itā¦ I heard him calling out to his mother while I was in the room. I turned towards him, and went closer. āSalem! Why are you crying?ā I asked.
When he heard my voice, he stopped crying. Then when he realized how close I was, he started feeling around him with his small hands. What was wrong with him? I discovered that he was trying to move away from me! It was as if he was saying, āNow, youāve decided to notice me? Where have you been for the last ten years?ā I followed himā¦ he had gone into his room. At first, he refused to tell me why heād been crying. I tried to be gentle with himā¦ Salem started to tell me why heād been crying, while I listened and trembled.
Do you know what the reason was?! His brother Umar, the one who used to take him to the masjid, was late. And because it was Jumuāah prayer, Salem was afraid he wouldnāt find a place in the first row. He called out to Umarā¦ and he called out to his motherā¦ but nobody answered, so he cried. I sat there looking at the tears flowing from his blind eyes. I couldnāt bear the rest of his words. I put my hand over his mouth and said, āIs this why you were crying, Salem!ā
āYes,ā he said.
I forgot about my friends, I forgot about the gathering, and I said, āDonāt be sad, Salem. Do you know whoās going to take you to the masjid today?ā
āUmar, of course,ā he said, āā¦ but heās always late.ā
āNo,ā I said, āIām going to take you.ā
Salem was shockedā¦ he couldnāt believe it. He thought I was mocking him. His tears came and he started crying. I wiped his tears with my hand and then took hold of his hand. I wanted to take him to the masjid by car. He refused and said, āThe masjid is nearā¦ I want to walk there.ā Yes, by Allah, he said this to me.
I couldnāt remember when the last time I had entered the masjid was, but it was the first time I felt fear and regret for what Iād neglected in the long years that had passed. The masjid was filled with worshippers, but I still found a place for Salem in the first row. We listened to the Jumuāah khutbah together, and he prayed next to me. But really, I was the one praying next to him.
After the prayer, Salem asked me for a musHaf. I was surprised! How was he going to read when he was blind? I almost ignored his request, but I decided to humor him out of fear of hurting his feelings. I passed him a musHaf. He asked me to open the musHaf to Surat al-Kahf. I started flipping through the pages and looking through the index until I found it. He took the musHaf from me, put it in front of him, and started reading the Surahā¦ with his eyes closedā¦ ya Allah! He had the whole Surah memorized.
I was ashamed of myself. I picked up a musHafā¦ I felt my limbs trembleā¦ I read and I read. I asked Allah to forgive me and to guide me. I couldnāt take itā¦ I started crying like a child. There were still some people in the masjid praying sunnahā¦ I was embarrassed by their presence, so I tried to hold my tears. My crying turned into whimpering and long, sobbing breaths. The only thing I felt was a small hand reaching out to my face, and then wiping the tears away. It was Salem! I pulled him to my chestā¦ I looked at him. I said to myselfā¦ youāre not the blind one, but I am, for having drifted after immoral people who were pulling me to hellfire. We went back home. My wife was extremely worried about Salem, but her worry turned into tears [of joy] when she found out I had prayed Jumuāah with Salem.
From that day on, I never missed the congregational prayer in the masjid. I left my bad friendsā¦ and I made righteous friends among people I met at the masjid. I tasted the sweetness of iman with them. I learned things from them that distracted me from this world. I never missed out on gatherings of remembrance [halaqas], or on the witr prayer. I recited the entire Qurāan, several times, in one month. I moistened my tongue with the remembrance of Allah, that He might forgive my backbiting and mocking of the people. I felt closer to my family. The looks of fear and pity that had occupied my wifeās eyes disappeared. A smile now never parted from the face of my son Salem. Anyone who saw him would have felt that he owned the world and everything in it. I praised and thanked Allah a lot for His blessings.
